Insomnia and thoughts

I'm thinking a nice long blog entry is in order. I feel like I've provided not a whole lot of substance as of late and honestly, I don't think there's going to be much is the way of substance today, either. But I feel like writing.

I can't sleep. Since I got back from my trip I haven't been able to sleep very well. I told Jim last night that it's because I was spoiled by the air on Maui. The best I've slept in years has been when I've been there.

I can't stop thinking about this last trip - much more so than the first time I went for vacation. How corny is it to say that the islands are calling me? I don't care. That's how I feel. It's a weird feeling.

Summer is winding down and with the onset of school, I am suddenly sad. As hectic and crazy a summer as this has been, I'm going to miss it when it's gone. I'll miss the kids in and out, hanging out with the neighbors in the evening outside, running in the early morning when the air is perfect - all of it.

Chris is leaving for Taiwan for a week on Friday, so it will be another week of managing the house on my own. This time I'm ok with it. I've been invited to a party that I found a sitter for, so I'm excited about going and doing a social thing in downtown Denver. I have plenty of work and house stuff to keep me busy, so the week should pass quickly.

I have been listening to a CD that a co-worker of Chris's made for me since he found out I'm an 80's nut. There are 886 songs on it and I am in heaven. Kirk, you are my hero. I think if I listen to anymore Foreigner, my kids are going to move out. Hey, maybe I should play some more Foreigner.

VA To Stay 07.26.07

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Honestly, who has the time to Twitter?

I decided I really don't. I think Twitter is a cool idea, but am I missing something? I know you're usually just typing in a little phrase here or sentence there, but man, I was kidding myself by thinking that I actually have the bandwidth to add this to the other things I think I need to be doing. The last thing I should be spending time on is taking a break every two minutes and losing focus on what I'm doing to throw down what I'm doing for everyone else to enjoy.

Thoughts??

Don't remove me from your reader yet!

I need you to hang in there as I'm still trying to get it together after my trip. Things will roll again on Monday!

Aloha from Maui!

I'm still alive and I'll be back to Colorado on Wednesday - just wanted to check in! I will be doing the podcast and it will be posted on Thursday. Definitely check in because I have tons to talk about including meeting Wayne Dyer in the flesh!!

Tee Hee

http://www.geekculture.com/joyoftech/

Revised attitude toward having the 4th in the middle of the week

Remember I said I liked having the 4th in the middle of the week? I lied. I hate it. For days, I had no idea what day it was, having my husband home in the middle of the week and then on the weekend wasn't working for me, and I felt depressed and not motivated. Not good. Because I was feeling so low, I ran on both Saturday and Sunday in the hopes of lifting my mood (and lowering my weight because what's up with eating mounds of potato salad over the 4th?). I definitely felt better about myself, but I had a nasty stomach thing all day yesterday that sucked.

Wow, usually I don't complain so much (here, anyway) but I wanted to get it off my chest and bring up the subject of working when you really don't feel like it. It's hard. It's up to you to motivate you and sometimes it's pretty hard coming. I know for me that the downward spiral usually turns up after a day or two and I'm ready to get back at it. And in order for that turnaround to happen, this is what I do:

• I exercise. It always makes me feel better - never fails.
  
• I shut down my computer and my Blackberry completely.
• I engage my kids - they have really good, wacky ideas that have nothing to do with anything but fun.
• I call my life coach. She's always there for when I need a pick-me-up.
• I meditate. When I'm down, it's probably because I'm stressed, overwhelmed, tired and scattered. I need to sit, breathe and relax.
  

Not rocket science, but simple stuff I can do that can really help me get out a funk. My husband says I'm missing something from that list, but that's another post;)

What do you do when you're down?

VA To Stay on hiatus until I get back from Hawaii

I am super busy trying to get ready for my trip and with the wacky holiday this week, I decided to wait until I get back from Hawaii to do another show. I have a great guest in mind for the next show and I'll let you know when I know details.

In the meantime, take the time to listen to some past shows if you haven't had the chance to. I think there's some good stuff there!

Because I had insomnia

I couldn't sleep, so I got up and have been Stumbling ever since. I found Dave Werner and his stuff is fantastic!

Enjoy the holiday

Kind of cool that the fourth of July falls in the middle of the week this year. I thought I hated that, but now I think I like it. I'm going to take most of the day off tomorrow after making sure I have a handle on the important stuff. Then it's enjoying the fact that my husband has a day off, we have fireworks to shoot and I may even get to read some of my book, catch up on TiVo or take a nap.

Integrity Day

One of the YahooGroups that I'm a member of does an Integrity Day once a month and I participated last week. I love this idea! You post your To-Do list, then check in at noon, then again around four or five to update your progress.

I am always a big fan of posting your junk out in the open so that even if no one on the planet knows it's out there, theoretically, you've put the word out that you are accountable for something. Just having that little twinge in the back of my mind is often the push I need to get things done or work just a bit harder on those things that I've been putting off.

It applies to more than just work, too. I started a blog with a girlfriend a couple of years ago when we started training for our first triathlon. We both wanted a way to track our progress and to see what the other one was doing without having to call each other all the time. It was an online diary where I kept track of my weight, what I ate and how much I trained. I knew my friend was checking it and a couple of my other friends knew as well, so I kept up with it and it did keep me in check, knowing that other people were reading it. It wasn't anything earth-shattering (do you really care how much cottage cheese I eat?), but it helped me lose almost 40 pounds and not only did I do the triathlon - I ran a bunch of races including a half-marathon. Go figure.

We abandoned it about a year ago, but I still think about how much that helped me accomplish what I wanted to accomplish.

What do you think?